Note
(rest day)
So a bit more time to think about the weekend's "races" - the punctuation there quite deliberate. Apologies in advance if this has a bit of a philosophical feel to it, just feel the need to get the thoughts down somewhere.
Judging your performance is difficult if you don't know what you're trying to judge against. If you don't have any aims, or focus for a race, then 'good' and 'bad' are quite subjective. I chose to run this weekend because it looked like a decent pair of races in suitable/challenging terrains for the disciplines.
But there must have been a subconscious thought of 'I'm running in a British Champs race, must go full out' but everything around that didn't happen if I was going for the 'best possible result' outcome. No pre-event looking at maps, no proper warm ups, no focus on the doing the right things in the right order. Technique came second, must keep running fast...
And so things unravelled, spectacularly at times, as they did last weekend. Time was of the essence - what could have easily stayed as little errors/hesitations just ballooned, because I had in the back of my mind I had to keep moving. Sometimes that little extra investment in time can make minutes of difference - 5 seconds extra thinking is often all it needs. Why is it that the headless chicken option often comes out on top?
What to take from this? Sometimes, going out with no aims/goals/expectations can be fun, and good for you, but it is difficult to justify it 'going wrong' if all you can say is 'I was really stupid to have done that.' Having an aim, backing it up with a focussed race plan and concentrating on executing that plan during that race is often all you need to do. I can look back at the JK and see that for myself. And the determined efforts of the Slowies at London yesterday make that all the more obvious - get the process right, and the outcome follows - Mr FRBlackSheep himself has finally defied to odds to show this is the case ;)